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P.S. Kain tayo donuts pag nagkita tayo! Mwah!

edited last November 12, 2006, 10:34 am

First, a class on Theodicy, or the philosophical study of God.
(Special thanks to Professor Doctor Co, my Intro to Philo prof, whom I love so much. I'll miss him. And... if you'll take his class it will probably cost you a thousand bucks per hour. Promise. He's the only Filipino to ever study in Sorbonne, where all great philosophers have studied.) 

There are three traditions to prove God's existence:

• Theist- One who believes in God
• Agnost- One who doubts the existence of God
• Atheist- One who does not believe in the existence of God.

St. Thomas is a theist. He wrote the Quinque Viae, or the Five Ways of Proving God's Existence (which will take us philo majors three months to study it. Don't bother, it's hard enough to understand. It states that there is a prime mover, an unmoved mover, a moved mover, and all that) In fact, he is the only recognized philosopher by the Church. He is also called the Angelic Doctor.

One day, St. Augustine and a man were walking by the beach. The man asked St. Augustine if he believed in God. Augustine answered, "Look," and motioned his hand towards the sky. "If God did not create that, who did?"

One can be a philosophical agnost but a personal theist, like Blaise Pascal (yes, he is a philosopher) who wrote the Pensees (literally translated, Thoughts). He asked the questions, What if there is no God? Should I believe? Should I do good?
His answer? If I die and there is no God, I have not lost anything. If I die and there is a God, then I shall go to Heaven.

I can't remember who wrote the Antimonies, but I can remember that Friedrich Nietszche said that God is dead.

Then, what I got from the bulletin board:

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty.He asks one of his new Christian students to stand and.....

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son?

Student : Yes, sir.

Prof : So you believe in God?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Prof : Is God good?

Student : Sure.

Prof : Is God all-powerful?

Student : Yes.

Prof : My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm? (Student is silent.)

Prof : You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student : Yes.

Prof : Is Satan good?

Student : No.

Prof : Where does Satan come from?

Student : From...God...

Prof : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Prof : Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Prof : So who created evil?(Student does not answer.)

Prof : Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student :Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?(Student has no answer.)

Prof : Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof : Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No , sir.

Prof : Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof : Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Prof : According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol,science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof : Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof : Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?

Prof : Yes.

Student: No sir. There isn't.(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold.Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it. (There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Prof : Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light
constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Prof : So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof : Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that deathcannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof : If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So,according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that
you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir? (The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof : I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

Second lesson:
Criteriology is the standard or measures of truth. One criteriology is Naive Realism. It states that if you have seen something, then it is true.

The statement "To see is to believe" is not true.
What if I tell you that I am wearing a blue shirt? Will you believe? Surely, you won't, because you haven't seen me yet. But if you have seen me, you'll know that I am wearing a blue shirt.

When you believe, you are merely relying on faith and trust without necessarily seeing a certain thing.
When you know, it is because you have seen.

Third lesson (which I learned from my love John Locke, who worked on his An Essay Concerning Human Understanding for twenty long years):
Empiricism is the belief that everything we know comes from our senses.

Where there's excitement, there's conflict.
And how I hate conflict.

So there. My life lacked excitement. It was the same old routine: wake up at 6:30 (6:15 if I'm lucky), prepare myself for school, go to school, listen to lectures, eat with my blockmates, hang out at the field, go back to my dorm, eat dinner, txt, read, and sleep.

I was looking for a way to be happy.

Shouldn't I be contented with the life I had? I saw it as perfect, after all. Then trouble came. I wanted something else from what I had.

So there. I was looking for excitement. I should have known. I got what I wanted. And as George Bernard Shaw said,

There are two tragedies in life:
To gain your heart's desire;
The other, to lose it.

Now there's excitement! (tadaaah!)

Why do we make simple things complicated?

When we seek for something other than what we usually have, we are looking for conflict, trouble.

When people are happy, they will be happy for a while but they will find uneasiness in their being happy. Uneasy in their newfound bliss, they will look for or create conflict.

Sometimes, when people are happy, they get tired of it. Seeing that the old things that have once made them happy does not make them happy anymore, they look for other things that will make them reach happiness.

Lately, i've been listening to a lot of rock music (which i never really liked that much) and it made me think that i wasn't as open-minded as i thought i was. and yes, to spare you the hatred, i'm beginning to like it.

Miguel Chavez, you are the first man I've seen who looked good with black eyeliner.

was it that looong?

haha.

uhmm... what has changed?

-i'm not afraid of refuting my mom with my 'logic-filled' arguments.

now that i've learned about criteriology and fallacies, i now know the difference when my mom is just threatening me or saying the truth. if she's threatening me (argumentum ad baculum), i return the favor. and she shuts up. sometimes my conscience works, sometimes my brain just shrugs it off, as if i was meant to do that since birth. (yes, ms. seri. as if it was innate.)

-random kwento:
whenever i go to katipunan, it rains. when i took the acet, it was raining. when i visit kim there, it's raining. and what if i transfer there? incessant ulan? nako, it cannot be.

edited 11.04.2006

my phone swam in the baha (milenyo! you dampened my spirits and made me lose a date! anyway, nakabawi naman ako ng kasiyahan sa championship.). haha. good thing i retrieved it. the damage: a thousand bucks. and yup, i'm still using it and is still in good condition.

-rebonded hair

had my hair rebonded on my birthday. jecha and nessa have seen me with the new do... um... jill, not sure, can't remember. yes, albert has seen me.
did it due to peer pressure and society's condemning upon those who look wretched.

-i now have the will to change

before, i was content with the apathy; i just let things be. now, i have found my voice and i now take steps to make changes. it just takes one person to make a single effect, which in turn can change another. the domino effect.

-the love for rock

i never really listened to rock before, i'm more of the rnb, soul, and mellow songs kind of girl. now i'm singing rock songs. and pretty soon i'll try to learn how to play drums and the guitar. (i can't ever deny this/this gift you won't hide)

-learning a new language

most of my dormmates and the people who own and manage my dorm are kapampangan, so i'm trying to learn the language. just simple phrases such as mangan tamu (kain tayo), mimingat ka (ingat ka), mayap aabak (good morning), mayap augtu (good afternoon), and, of course, the quintessential kaluguran daka (i love you). and if you know more, i'd be very glad to learn.

-this is such an old story but...
CONGRATULATIONS TO UST GROWLING TIGERS FOR BEING THE UAAP CHAMPIONS!

watched it in the AB building with some of my blockmates. nako, naubusan kami ng ticket after falling in line for an hour sa araneta. bad trip. even though we weren't at araneta, we still cheered go uste. it was sooo fun. school spirit at its best. and when we uste won, everyone was jumping. and then, there was free food at the gym.

-loves sociology.

achieved status. delinquent. deviant. acculturism. immersion. interaction. to others, they may just be simple terms. but to me, they mean a lot. sociology was developed by august comte. it stemmed from philosophy, and the first sociologists were called social philosophers. i might as well take this path.
last august, we went to the national bilibid prisons, medium security compound. we were welcomed by a band (sorry ms. sapida... can't recall what kind of band it was... basta the one in parades... is that a marching band?)anyway, i enjoyed talking to the inmate assigned to me, kuya ricky. i wanted to ask him about what he thought about God, buti na lang nagpasakalye ako (na hindi ko na matandaan) then he told me that he's converted to muslim. and then i wonder. when robin padilla served his sentence (possession of firearms) at bilibid, he was also converted.
when i get my hands on the reaction paper i made for THY1 (graded 94, i'm not contented...) i'll publish it here.

-hates loves Lit101

super. Lit101 deserves a full entry.

I think that might be all for now.

Philo.

One of the two Centers of Excellence in the Pontifical, Royal, and Catholic University of Santo Tomas, the other being Nursing.

Everytime someone asks me, "What is your course?", I shyly smile and say, "Philo po," afraid of comments such as, "Bakit yun ang pinili mo? Walang pera don!"

And then comes the remarks, "Astig! Galing mo naman."

I love it.

My classmates, when asked why they chose Philosophy, will answer:

-"Di ako nakapasa ng Engineering."
-"Malambot ang Philosophy. You know... Philo (pillow)"
-"Wala lang, masarap pakinggan."
-"Pre-law ko."

Before, my answer was the last one. Now, it is,

"I'm searching for the truth, and the truth shall set me free, according to Criteriology." Wehe.

Awhile ago, I had dinner with two of my 1PHL classmates- Paul and Nikka. We were at McDo from 6:45 pm to 8:00 pm (I am typing this as of 8:54 pm). I realized, ang saya naman ng buhay. That was the life. Just spending time with people, getting to know them, and getting to commune with their souls.

This afternoon, I was at SM San Lazaro, again, with two 1PHL classmates- Lyra and Itchie, looking for fun. We spent two hours at World of Fun and spent an accumulated 500 bucks. Hindi ako masaya because I was worrying about my money going to worthless causes (read: businessmen who are playing golf).

I realized, as I walked in UST in its glory, lit only by the stars, the moon, streetlights, and lights from the buildings, I AM PROUD TO BE A THOMASIAN.

And you don't need material things to be happy. The simple knowledge that I belong to this prestigious institution gives me great joy. And my day is now complete.

Hindi ko naisip. Buti na lang binigyan ko ito ng tsansa. Masaya sa UST per se.

Minsan, naiisip kong sana, nag-nursing ako. Bakit? Marami kasing gwapo sa nursing.  Pero, di rin. Hindi ko talaga hilig ang nursing kahit na may knack ako para sa medicine. Noon kasing buntis ang nanay ko sa akin, intern siya sa ospital. Nag-aaral siya.

Pero kontento na ako sa mga kaklase kong seminarista. Masaya silang kasama. They are deep, profound, and pious (neeeeh. bulaan). But they can be naughty at times.

Nagkakayayaan uminom. Gusto ko ba o hindi? Kung ang tanong kay Hamlet ay To be or not to be, ang tanong sa akin ay To drink or not to drink.

Nagagamit ko na ang mga natututunan ko sa PHL 1 (Introduction to Philosophy). Tulad ng kaibahan ng knowing at believing. (Oo, simple lang, pero di ako ganon katalino para maisip ko yun noon.)

When there is an evidence, you know.
When you rely on faith and trust, you believe.

May report nga pala ako kay John Locke. Pinili kong aralin/ critique ang Essays Concerning Human Understanding. Di pa ako nakakahanap ng kopya nun.

(aside: shit, bakit ganito ang mga kanta rito sa computer shop? more than words... puro love songs.)

At kanina sa Philo 201, Oriental Philosophy, nag- astral projection kami. Mag-aaral nga ako mag-hypnotize.

But when Uste is compared to other schools, the problem sets in. I really lack school spirit.

Black Gold! Black White na nga lang. Pupunta akong UAAP. At magsusuot ako ng dilaw. Hindi maroon, hindi berde, at mas lalong hindi bughaw. Dilaw.

From Kim: Kung sinong may kailangan ng dorm sa may u.p./ateneo area, i another one reserved. 1k reservatn, 3k/mo. ul jst have one roomie. located at xavierville right beside tape productions. email kim.na.taga.matthew@gmail.com na lang if you're interested.

Himala:
Hindi na ako mahilig mag-Internet!

Tamang-tama lang. Mag-aaral na akong mabuti sa college. Gusto ko makapag-trabaho agad eh. Kung pwede sana sa Candy Mag o sa Seventeen.

Testing lang muna. Kung maramdaman ko na gusto ko na magtrabaho, ayun. Kung hindi ako tamarin, kukuha ako ng abogasya.

Sa tingin ninyo, saan pinakamaganda kumuha ng Abogasya?
(Tingin ko may sasagot dito ng UP, di ba, Jen?)

Dati, hindi ko gets kung bakit takot pumunta ng dentista ang mga tao. Wala namang ahas doon. Hindi ka naman bubunutan agad ng ngipin. Pero kanina, pumunta ako ng dentista. Nanlalamig. Hindi mapakali. Anim na buwan pala akong hindi nakapunta doon at hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin. Kawawang mga metal sa ngipin.

Nauna pa ako sa dentista ko sa klinika niya. Buti na lang hindi ako pinagalitan. Nginitian pa ako at tinanong kung saan ako papasok! Nakipagdaldalan pa sa akin at pinayuhan ako. Tulad ng dati. Siya lang siguro ang adult na nasasabihan ko ng mga hinaing ko. Sa susunod, hindi na ako mag-aatubiling pumunta sa kanya.

Oo nga pala. Ang paborito kong parte sa pagpunta sa dentista ay ang pauwi na. Paano ko malalaman? Ang simula nito, tatanungin ako ni Doktora kung anong kulay ng rubber (yung ilalagay sa brackets) ang nais ko. Tapos, papaupuin niya ako sa upuan sa tabi ng lamesa niya at kakausapin tungkol sa buhay ko. Bibigyan niya ako ng payo, sasabihin kung magkano ang utang ko, magbibilang ako ng pera, magbabayad, at magpapaalam.

Hindi na berde ang kulay ng rubber ng mga metal sa ngipin ko. (Sa pasukan, berde muli ang ipapalagay ko. Miss ko na eh. Ang ganda talaga ng berde.) Nais ko sana ay kulay rosas. Ngunit bughaw (sky blue, kakulay ng skirt namin sa RC) ang pinili ko sapagkat papalitan din ito sa Miyerkules sa isang linggo. Kulay rosas na ang pipiliin ko.

Hindi na naman ako makakain. Nagtatagumpay na ako sa aking weight loss plan.

Ang galing pala ni Gerald sumayaw! At lagi akong napapa-ismayl   tuwing sumasayaw ang mga lalaki ng Don Romantico. Sinayaw din namin iyon para sa isang kompetisyon noong Buwan ng Wika.

Napapahanga ako ni Kim. Napaka-talented pala siya! Wala lang. Bilib na ako sa kanya.

Minsan, natutuwa ako kay Matt. Minsan naaasar dahil sa mga biro niya. Minsan, ang hangin niya. Magsama na nga lang sila ni Olyn, para matuwa ako.

Naawa ako kay Clare noong hindi nakasakay sa "Mercedes". Tanong nga ng nanay ko eh, "Wala bang Mercedes sa Bukidnon?" Ang nanay ko naman ang mean ngayon.

Wala lang. Natawa lang ako kay Fred. Alam niyo na yon.  Naughty, naughty!

Dahil wala na si Aldred, si Fred ang nakapukaw ng atensyon ko. Dahil wala na si Ninya, ayoko na kay Fred. (tumamlay si Fred eh. magpa-evict ka na para magkasama na ulit kayo at maging hyper ka muli) Si Mikee na ngayon ang peyborit ko.

Hindi ko pa rin feel si Brenda.

Featured Blogger: Jennifer Bawalan
Jennifer is an incoming Pharmacy freshman at UP Manila. She was my classmate for three years, and she is truly one smart and pretty girl. At first, you may think of her as mataray, but when you hang out with her, she'll quickly put you at ease and start sharing stories of her life. Visit her blog, they are full of words of wisdom.

i stumbled upon this once:

"life is too short for drama and petite problems. so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, life is too short to be anything but happy."

one failure is just a failure, no matter how significant or miniscule it is. a heartbreak is just one of the many heartbreaks we're gonna experience, just think of it as one of the mismatches from heaven. wow. haha. teka. heartbreak doesn't only mean the boy-girl thingy, ok?

1 pa: ANG HINIHINTAY 'YUNG SIGURADONG BABALIK/DADATING. tandaan yan. don't waste opportunities para lang sa anumang/sinumang (suman?! hahaha. corny ko tlga.) walang katiyakan kung babalik/dadating nga, ok?

we will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen. every day, god gives us the sun - and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. if people really pay attention to their everyday lives, they will discover that magic moment. it may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front - door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows that lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. but that moment exists - a moment when all the power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles. joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments - but all of this is transitory; it leaves no permanent mark. and one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken. - paulo coelho (di yan copy paste, nbasa ko sa book nya)

ba't bigla pumasok 'to sa isip ko? ewan ko rin. sa totoo lang ha.

i, ren and mai went to upm, rob ermita and mai's house today. hot!! grrrr. ren and i bought shirts of the same design but different colors: red(nasa background sa kama) and black, respectively.

front. kama ko ung background.

back. lngya. diba? basahin ang nasa baba nito.

dun ko lang sa bahay nila mai na-realize na ang kulit/hangin ng dating ng shirt. napaisip tuloy ako kung kelan ko lang massuot 'yon. hahaha. alam ko na solusyon: i'll let my hair down. natatakpan naman un.

in fairness, ang galing nila magdesign. mrami pang cute shirts dun. kung gusto m, sabihin lang sa 'kin, pwde ko sbihin kung san nakakabili o contact details nung napagbibilhan.

jen: (nilabas ang shirt nya at sinuri ang caption sa likod) teka, para atang mayabang labas nito a...

ren: (bumubungisngis) aba'y talagang mayabang 'yan. ngayon mo lang napansin?!

jen: hindi kaya magalit mga taong 'di taga-up pag sinuot ko 'to?

ren: baka nga. piliin mo na lang kung kelan mo isusuot.

jen: ok lang isuot to pg may gimik w/ hs friends? 'di kaya cla myabangan pag sinuot natin 'to?

ren: hindi yan.

jen: ok. (tinago ang shirt)

Isa pa:

well.. was i?

what i mean is... do i have the right to react like that?

haha. i've already answered that and i'm sticking with my conclusion. i do have the right.

hai. don't you just hate self-righteous people? how about self-centered ones?

but we won't know they're self-righteous and self-centered unless they've already done their dirty work on us/unless they've already hurt us right?

so you think you could get away from all that you've done to me just like that? hell no. so you think you could play innocent and start flirting with my closest friends just like that? you think one of them will fall into your trap and repeat the mistake i had with you? haha. i'm much wiser and i know better now. you know i learn from my mistakes. but you should have known better.

the good news is: it, too, shall pass. because nothing lasts forever. no consolation, but true. after ages. you go rot.

enough said.

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Kim: Dapat ikaw yung isa pa. Pero hindi ko alam kung papayag ka. Maglalagay kasi ako ng mga sinulat mo eh. Pili ka na lang ng kung ano ang gusto mong ilagay ko. Comment ka, tapos i-e-edit ko na lang.

Oo nga pala: Miss ko na sina Ma'am Ambojia at Ma'am Zamora kaya matatagpuan mo ang mga salitang ito sa entri na ito: ismayl, peyborit, atbp. At naisali rin ang Buwan ng Wika.